I don’t feel like “the epistemics are failing” is the coarse-grained description I’d use, I think there’s more details about which bits are going on and why (and which bits actually seem to be going quite excellently!), but I wanted to agree with feeling sad about this particular bit.
I expect it would be quite useful both here and more generally for you to expand on your model of this.
I expect it would be quite useful both here and more generally for you to expand on your model of this.